Sec 3 really really SUCKS!!!

I really major major need these two things.

1) More sleep

2)More hours per day

OMG..This week was common test week and it was HORRIBLE! I never ever sleep so late everyday for a week! NEVER! Not even for last year exams and all that. Can you just believe it when it comes to the actual exam? I think I don't need to sleep lorh. Thank God this week have no dance or I will just GG. I think partly due to the fact that I all last minute work :( But, I really no time and feel to study!!! SS was okay....E maths was horrible, A Maths was better than what I expected, Physics was the same, Chem was easy, Bio too, and LIT SUCKS!! Then now, next week, along with a mountain loadful of homework, with dance almost everyday, I think the holidays will be like school days. HORRIBLE! And I keep getting so stressed b/c I am from MD, 9 sub class, everybody expects me to be smart,expects me to score well, then I am afraid that I won't and get last of the class and get kicked out, and I have to manage the finances and my sister isn't helping much. I really hope that after SYF, life would really be MUCH EASIER for me. Which I don't think is the case. I can't constantly study, it is like MAJORLY killing me :( Then everybody thinks I am okay because I keep smiling and don't look pissed and tired and grouchy like someone. Freak la..I smile b/c everyone looking so horrible so I smile to encourage people when actually I feel like screaming at someone and pulling my hair. Then my mum keeps putting pressure on me, and for me to take care my sis. Sometimes, i really just want to freeze time and hide in my own world, just even for a while :( Then keep regretting joining MD, b/c very stress, felt I should have join CR. :( If I really this year physics CMI, i will just drop it. I SWEAR....

SIAN...After everything, I really don't feel like smiling :( But like what Mr Teo said, must SMILE :D

This is what I must do! JIA YOU JIA YU!!! :D :D I CAN DO IT!